niceferatu @spookydjinn@deadinsi.de

I'm djinn. they/them. #nonbinary. #sanguinarian. in lieu of a proper #introduction I'm just gonna post a load of hashtag things I like and then go through those tags I guess #DnD #VtM #wod #music #acapella #top #scp #gw2 #guildwars2 #hozier #introductions #newtomastodon #tumblrrefugee #furry #starwars #witchcraft #singing #goth #christianity #queerChristianity #necromancy #idkwhatelse #help

me: *joyfully covering my new laptop in stickers I've collected over the years*

parents: oh wow that is ugly, wish you hadn't done that

And though I know how much you hate this
Are you going to be the one to save us
From the black and hopeless feeling?
Will you mean it when the end comes reeling?
Hold your heart into this darkness
Will it ever be the light to shine you out
Or fail and leave you stranded?
I am not going to be the one left standing
You aren't going to be the one left standing
We aren't going to be the ones left standing

there! my hair is pink! where's my fucking seratonin?

what... is the point of me right now? I wish I had to stop the apocalypse or something so I'd have a reason to get out of bed

I am... a construct. a character in a story that people can relate to if they wish but not interactive

that was a funny joke in which I pretended that my parents would bother even checking on me instead of just telling me to take my meds and clean the cat litter

dad: hey are you okay?

me: ladies and gentlemen truth is now acceptable fame is now injectable process the progress the core is critical faith is unavailable lives become incredible please understand that

how does anyone manage to exist as a person, day in day out?

I wish my emotions were stable and recognisable as a part of me rather than just an outside force that takes hold of me and makes me manically dye my hair then speak to no one for three days

my brain is sore and sad and I'm gonna hide in my bedroom all day because of it

I keep thinking back to year 9 drama when I was really bad at emotional memory because I was just numb all the time and Stanislavski doesn't cater to that but... I think i would be incredibly improved by now.