why can I not right-click on the application I searched for and open the folder it resides in
personal, christianity, money
tithing has always been v hands off. put money in the offering basket and pass it down. I've not Had to decide where to allocate. this wasn't smth that was covered. and even when I attended the church's fiscal meetings, tithes covered bills and already established community projects. I didn't need to choose where to help bc a board of ppl already decided.
how the fuck do ppl prioritise
personal, christianity, money
at a point I feel financially secure so it's time to start tithing again, which is a lot more tricky since I no longer have a church home. the next obvious course of action is charity, but it's overwhelming trying to decide for WHAT. do I vet a charity org? would direct gfm donations make a more tangible impact in line w the spirit behind tithes? I could do both... but where do I start?
sims 4 posting
this is so funny actually dfghjkhgfdghj I'm looking at raj's opinion of his dead baby momma and he found her "Very Unattractive" dfghjkhgfghj YOU WOOHOO'D IN A DUMPSTER WITH HER
sims 4 posting
here's what's happened thus far.
olive garden (so named bc she wore a lot of green not bc she's a foodie) was a broke college student who lived out of one of the shipping crates at the company, this Topian ("dystopian") Crates Inc, that she worked at.
olive was phenomenal at time management and somehow was juggling a full course-load, parties, work, and an unplanned baby from one of the party woohoos. the baby's name is thistle garden.
... and then I accidentally zoned out while the game was running and when I zoned back in thistle had been moved into their absent father's household at 20 culpepper house (raj and his mom) because OLIVE GARDEN DIED????? I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT HAPPENED
sims 4 posting
so I kinda just ... I got burned by that yanno? I started a new save but I didn't actually Plan anything and I've just been playing it and I'm saying all this to say I don't know what to add to my storyline cw bc I don't know what the heck it's about
@yo My "The U.S. is in full compliance with its obligations under the Biological Weapons Convention and does not develop or possess chemical and biological weapons anywhere." shirt has people asking a lot of questions already answered by my shirt.
personal, this is probably internalised homophobia
how arrogant of me to consider myself so maliciously powerful tbh it's literally not that deep
personal, this is probably internalised homophobia
maybe I don't actually want anything at all and by any action I've wasted time and ruined some innocent woman's day. or maybe I Do want romance but I'm not actually Capable of Feeling it so it's all an act and when the charade is up I've wasted time and ruined some innocent woman's day.
personal, this is probably internalised homophobia
I don't have this thought fully formed, but a deep-seated fear of mine is that I don't want a human partner, but an arm-candy status symbol that I can lavishly spoil with gifts and who will smile and laugh. this fantasy partner has free will and comes and goes as she pleases and the relationship is nonexclusive so that all her needs can be appropriately met. for reasons I can't interpret, that fantasy feels Bad. that no matter how consensual, I am Hurting this partner by not performing ... something. I don't know what the something is. also Everything I do in this fantasy is a Performance so it's Not Real Love and I'm sociopathic and objectifying and I should Change My Mindset before ever considering interacting w a real person bc I will Hurt them.
and yanno that's just a thought that coexists in my mind
🍋 // 23 // refer to me in confusing and unknowable ways
I use this account for sims and complaining. CWs are usually vague because I never know where my train of thought is going to end.