[sobbing mathematically] @lemememeringue@deadinsi.de

hmmmm I feel like complaining but I'm not personally offended by anything in my life right now,,, I shall correct this

the only thing I do consistently online is complain tbh but idk if "I have a new midlife crisis every week" is exactly how I'd like to introduce myself

anyway due to that thought exercise I came to the conclusion that whoever's putting people and horses on trains to die is evil and I would let both creatures die while pursuing the rogue train attendant with a kitchen knife

but in the original terrible scenario, I had no such information and was reprimanded for "overthinking".

we unanimously agreed the youngest bc he would've had the least amount of quantifiable life experiences at that point so it's Only Fair.

I remember crying all thru lunch and then asking my siblings which of us would be spared if we were all on that doomed train.

which is what you get for showing a 9yo animal farm tbh

I don't remember why this was even part of my school lesson, but I was asked if I would save a person or a horse from a train that's about to crash and became deeply confused when "both" was not the right answer. then the situation escalated to saving myself vs the horse (obviously in an attempt to show that human life, My life, is more valued than an animal's) but that did Not make my calculations any easier bc if humans have souls and animals have souls then how can one be more meaningful than the other?

thinking abt that brief moment in my childhood where I was starting to care about creatures around me instead of "being a sociopath" and how my introduction to ethics was so traumatising it set me back a good 5 years or so when I was already delayed by 3.

a fun overly dramatic thing to do is accuse my family of attempted murder for opening curtains