Not sure how today became one long stretch of aimless anxiety keeping me from focusing on the new assignment in front of me, but I'd like to uninstall it.

As I pour my Rochester-brand Scottish root ginger into my ginger and sorrel tea and contemplate stirring in some powdered ginger, and remember the multiple boxes of Celebration-brand chocolate gingerbread cookies I inhaled in the weeks following my return from Montreal, I get to thinking...

I sure do like cilantro.

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my favorite pokémon starter: Totodilator

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If I still had an AIM away message, this month it'd be "BRB, dilating."

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He sees you when you're sleeping.
He knows when you're awake.
He knows All, for his gaze laps upon the ocean of memory with a thousand tinsel tongues, ever and ever.
He knows if you've been bad or good,
But he does not care; all are as grains of sand in the dunes of eternity, noisome in his gaze.


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Trainer's Log, 10 Dec 2018.

Yesterday was lovely. I went out to celebrate a friend's birthday at our favorite sushi restaurant. This took some doing, on the punishing dilation schedule of the first month, but it was a well-spent outing.

The event took a lot more out of me than I expected. Last night was unpleasant with sweats that lasted until morning and which have left me even more tired today. I'm keeping an eye on this, in case it's something that departs via switching to my higher estrogen dose a bit early. I've also been cold for much of the day, so I'm not in very high spirits right now.

There are sutures protruding from my vagina. So far, they're not getting any looser and ordinary actions, including dilation, don't pull on them, so I'm waiting them out. Dilation itself is increasingly a chore, which may or may not be related to the new lubricant or my overall exhaustiion.

I was going to work on a freelance writing assignment, but I think I'm just taking a nap instead.

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