Shutting this down. Moving to @bix.
And I still have a liver ultrasound and I still have lab work and I still have a postponed sleep study and I still have mysterious body aches and I still have to decide on bladder stone removal surgery and a diverticulum biopsy and the thought of having to care for a catheter for two weeks paralyzes me.
Yesterday I had a CT scan (don’t worry, this thread is amongst the cards and letters I will burn), which is a minor and uninvasive thing but still I trembled uncontrollably through almost the entire thing, I guess because the last time I was prone on a medical table was last week for a cystoscopy and I was still traumatized?
I think I have an unnecessary unearned and unseemly need to be relevant and it fucks up my mental life. There’s nothing I do or think of doing that isn’t rightfully being done or can’t be done by other people, in better ways and more attuned to progress. It’s all just deluded wheel spinning on my end.
It's weird that on #WriteFreely blog entries there is literally no link back to the main page of the site. Only a link to WriteFreely itself. To discover anything else on the site, you'd have to go to the URL field and manually erase everything but the domain.