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mh musing, family 

am I a narcissist or just arrogant. like,, I thought I understood clinically what narcissism was but then my dad got diagnosed and I'm still like ???? bc yeah he's full of himself but not in a way that exudes any sort of charisma or self confidence. he's just some guy.

mh musing, family 

granted I'm his spawn he has a deeply complicated relationship with so maybe he's not Trying, like how I don't mask around family. but idc it still feels weird bc he and I are a lot alike and when he was dx'd with bipolar disorder and adhd I could v clearly make out the symptoms and it made a lot of his decisions more understandable. but I don't think I have enough of a foundation to rly Get anything abt npd. that knowledge didn't add ANYTHING to my interpretation of him.

mh musing, family 

I like how my thoughts are waffling back and forth between "what's wrong w my dad" and "what's wrong with me" bc I cannot conceptualise him as anything other than a prototype for my existence but God Forbid I have any similarities to my mother who is also very much like me

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