xoey @2015_05_09@deadinsi.de

Because undiagnosed dysphoria? Can't socialize due to expectations of a social role I couldn't fulfill? Never feeling any sense of relatability with any of my peers?

So I became an introvert by necessity. To protect myself.

And these are the hardest to play with others! If I liked some extremely mediocre time wasters like ticket to ride I'd have an easy time growing up and getting to play with others.

But I didn't, and I don't. So I have to look for specialist groups and dedicated players to find any satisfaction in my hobbies.

Combine this with my undiagnosed dysphoria growing up and that meant I couldn't make any friends with similar interests at all.

Then again, because I am the highly competitive being that I am the most fun I have with board games is usually highly competitive tightly balanced 1v1 games.

Android: Netrunner is one of those and I'm so sad it's out of print. But also the cool stuff you can do in that game is unreal. I love it. There's just nothing like sitting there all smug going "I built my board up and now you either try and stop me from winning and die, or you let me do this and I win", and the feeling when you're in a desperate situation and pull off an amazing bluff for the win is also unbeatable.

Even running into a trap and getting murdered for it is something else, what with most board games avoiding player frustration as if it's the worst thing.

When I grew up I thought Monopoly and Yahtzee was all there was to board games. If you were hardcore you'd play Risk, sometimes.

And those games are all garbage. Trash.
And because board games require other people I simply avoided them in favour of video games. Where I could get interesting mechanics.

But now that I can play with fellow nerds board games are great.

My girlfriend watches more anime than me and yet she can't recognize a single touhou

And she keeps calling me a weeb

Help me from this bullying

Joining a polycule of unionized submissives to negotiate better conditions

https://twitter.com/accelldraws/status/1233852162288971776?s=19

No but seriously I've been having puppy feels and I don't know what these feelings are??? Help??

I'm,,, puppy???