My experience with being a girl was like this.

Imagine you're born wearing an invisible mask. You naturally assume everyone else is wearing a mask, too.

Every time someone tells you how to act or how to be you add some paint to the mask. The mask getting heavier each time.

Eventually, 2 weeks ago for me, the mask starts suffocating you. You start drowning. It's literally killing you. But you don't know it's the mask doing it because the mask was always there.

After breaking down completely, and still not being sure why, you take off the mask.
And then, the next moment, I was trans.

@2015_05_09 That is pretty much how I felt. But I will add an addendum.

Sonetimes you finally realize how heavy the mask is and finally take it off. And let one person see. Then another. But around you are blaring ads saying "Masks great! Upgrade mask today!" So you keep wearing it, knowing you dont want to. And the mask gets smaller and smaller so it doesn't cover as much as it used to, and more people see. But you still throw it on for appearances. Until boom, you break it.

@NeoAJ ouch, I can't imagine how painful that is. I decided right away I would never put the mask on again as soon as I noticed I was wearing it. I just thought it was normal to wear it. To feel like I always did.

@2015_05_09 I've been doing it for six years. Still doing it. Forced Stealth Week is evidence. I did because I thought I still needed the mask to survive and get a job I wanted in my industry. Didnt even start chipping at the edges of the mask until last year. But now, I am so close. So close to smashing that fucking mask over my knee and being done with it. I know that day is coming soon. How many people are caught by the debris. That will be the question.

@NeoAJ I'm so sorry girl that hurts me so much!! Augh.
I can't wait for you to hatch!!

@2015_05_09 Definitely a cracked egg at this point. There is a little bit of sunlight. Since coming here and having a space where I can be myself 24/7, more sunlight has appeared.

@NeoAJ I'm so glad! I hope I'm helping with that a little!

@2015_05_09 You are! You and the whole community has been great. Its why I stay here. I just, feel happier here than elsewhere. And I hope I can spread that.

@NeoAJ @2015_05_09 when I told my ex back in October that I felt like I was constantly acting like someone I'm not I didn't realize I was an egg but now I'm a beautiful teeny tiny hatchling chick

@nuttgodd @NeoAJ right!!! I've said it to myself a lot and others several times and I never.... Got it

@2015_05_09 @nuttgodd Proud of you Nutt! I think this place has been a benefit to a lot of people mentally like that. Like I said, I am picking up a lot more confidence in myself. Course the HRT helps too but still!

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@2015_05_09 This is exactly how I felt!
I didn't know I was trans for the longest time because I didn't even consider it a possibility. But now that I've taken off the mask I can never put it back on.

You'll be alright, sister :heart_trans:

This was me except for I knew it was a mask... And I still couldn't put it down:( thankfully now I have. *Offers a supportive hug*

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